Nipple Piercing

Getting my nipples done was a symbol of my surrender to Master and our movement to a 24/7 relationship. It took another 6 months from the time of the clit piercing to get the nipples done. We both did a bunch of research on what was the best way to have it done, for healing, and being able to play hard with them.

I was scared about getting this done, everyone I talked to, told me how much getting this done hurt, but I had made up my mind that I wanted this symbol not only for Master but for me too. I am very proud of them now, and love the way they look. This was written only the day after having it was done.

Nipple held firmly in the clamp, this nipple that had fed my children, this nipple I had looked upon my entire life. Today it would change for the rest of my life, I would never look at it the same. I could here the clamp click. She asked me if that hurt, and I could only tell her no, my mind running to hide in fear of the upcoming pain. Seeking all the dark corners it could. Eyes turned towards the ceiling, study the swirls of plaster. It needs pictures. She tells me many people have said that. I won't let the fear take over, I can't let it take me away. I want this, I want it for me, I want it for him. The numbing will feel cold. It does but less than any ice cube that has been there before. Okay I am ready, I know it is coming. Hold my hand Master. Let me use your power and energy to give me courage to do this. His strong hand gripping mine. My mind focus's on the pressure. It begins.

I can feel the needle push on the nipple. It breaks the barrier of my body. The metal intruder moves across my nipple. It pushes to be released on the other side. Oh the pain, hold tight, don't make a sound. Don't cry. Take it. Become one with it, breathe with the agony. Needle coming free... but it isn't over. Stretch the skin... feel the pull, doesn't hurt. Now the jewelry... the push of the threads on my tender flesh, but this doesn't hurt either. The skin just excepts it, and so do I. I take a deep breath. It hurts, my body is going into the same shock it feels when Master strikes me. The same heat is rising off of me. She turns on the fan. Giving me a few moments to get control before the second nipple.

I tell myself it wasn't that bad... I can finish this. Clamp again, eyes to the ceiling, more slow breathing. Hold my hand again, I am still scared. More cold of numbing but this time the coldness feels more bitter. Body feeling so much more than it did a few minutes before. Stabbing... oh no... too much... I can't do this again. The pushing. Clutching the hem of my shorts with one hand and holding tight to Master with the other. Entire body tensing, muscles screaming, mind hiding in the pain. Be done, please be done. No, there is the stretching and the jewelry to do yet. Clutching, breathing, soon please. Okay we are done.

Big let out of breath. Talk to myself... it is okay, you are okay, it is over now. Look at him. See it there... love in his eyes. You did that very well she tells me. I hope so, I don't want to be weak. Tell me I was a good girl. Master says I was a good girl. The tired feeling of great battles begins to settle on me. Still need to keep control. Kindness from her, love and kindness from him. Words lost... I can't hear right now, I can't think right now. Mind is busy with dealing with the intruders to the body. Nipples are clinched along the barbell. They are angry she tells me. I can't blame them.

I am not angry, I am in pain. But I am free, in ways I never knew I could be. I love in ways I never knew I could. And even in the pain I have asked for... I am loving myself in ways I never knew I could.

It is just the beginning of the healing and the pain to follow, but I know my mind will see me though. I know loving him will give me the power to do this. I know I am beautiful in ways I never was before, because he loves me. I am free.

It has been a year since I wrote that. My nipples have healed wonderfully. I was lucky enough to have them heal without suffering infection or other problems. Just recently, my Master changed the jewelry I wear from barbells to 3/4 inch emerald titanium rings. I think they look quite nice and Master has discovered that putting you thumb in the rings to give them a pull or twist can have very interesting effects. Some day I would like to have nipple shields and other choices in jewelry, but for the time being, it is just fun to show off my pretty new rings. Master plays with them quite hard, much to my pleasure and pain. And each day when I see them in the mirror, I still smile... thinking back on that woman who would "never" get that done.

May 2001 I can't believe I have had this jewelry in this long! I really want to get some celtic knot nipple sheilds, and nope I still haven't gotten them yet. But darn for the really nice one it costs a bunch of money. They have still been very nice having them and fun in play. Let me tell you it is quite the trip to have Master put me in rope bondage and connect it to my nipples...eeeekkk!!!! A little scary to be sure!

Even after all this time my left nipple, the wimpier of the two, will still kind of get tender and sore from play and get a little junked up. But I shoot it with bactine and it is all better in a day or two. I am not sure that they will ever completely heal as it were but I really like them and am glad I braved the whole adventure out.